Let’s say you are browsing a porn website, which I know some of you reading sexblogging.com would never do. But let’s just close our eyes and pretend. After you’ve studied the “Craigslist is Dead! Get Easy Pussy Now!” advertisement for a few moments, you decide to actually browse the selection. If you click on Hardcore, you will probably see a man and a woman having sex in various positions as fast as possible. This video usually ends up with the man jumping to his feet in his last seconds and unloading his semen onto a woman’s shocked yet happy face. If you click on Gay, you will probably see two men fucking each other without condoms or pissing on each other while they talk extremely manly. Or maybe just two college guys stroking it next to each other with huge smiles on their faces. If you click on Lesbian, you will probably see two women having sex in the scissor position fake orgasming for 10 minutes. Ok, I’m not going to keep going. I know most of you on our page have never even thought of visiting a porn website, so just imagine endless categories along the side of page, from Anal and Asian, to Tranny and Grannies. My point? If you click on Bisexual, what will you see? You will either see two bisexual women and a man, or two bisexual men and a woman. You will never click on a video or buy a porn that says, “Bisexual” and not see one of these combinations. Why? Because a true bisexual experience is a person enjoying another person of the same sex, and the opposite sex, at the same time. If you clicked on a Bisexual link and you ended up watching a lesbian or gay video, you would be extremely disappointed.
That’s how I feel in my sex life.
Would it matter if I told you that even though you clicked Bisexual and ended up watching a gay or lesbian scene you can still watch and enjoy the videos because those people you are currently watching having gay or lesbian sex also have heteosexual sex off camera? The actors/actresses are “bisexual.” Does that make watching the video more bisexual?
This blog topic may cause a bit of stir among the millions of bisexual women that visit our blog daily (okay, I may have exaggerated a little). For me, bisexuality is not being a part-time lesbian. Not that anything is wrong with being a part-time lesbian, but for me, bisexuality is enjoying a man and woman together at the same time. Maybe I will start a new movement? I’ve spoken with various women who all claim to be totally bisexual, yet their goal is to get me to commit to a lesbian experience. I understand why, as most women are already in a relationship with a man and can’t just join another woman and her man for a true bisexual experience. In fact, both women are usually in the same situation, so rather than deal with men, they instead become part-time lesbians and have a lesbian experience. I also understand why they would classify themselves as bisexual. They like men and women, they just like them seperate. In essence, they are part-time heterosexual and part-time lesbians. One thing is certain, they are not having bisexual experiences if their female and male partners are not all in the same room.
With that being said, let me make it clear to the readers, I am bisexual. When I say bisexual, I mean I am absolutely bisexual. To be fair, I am also a part-time heterosexual. Although I got married prior to really finding out who I was on the inside, I wouldn’t stop having sex with my husband now simply because I know I am bisexual and prefer to have him and another woman rather than us alone. I do not consider this settling, as I am committed and love him, and I will always do what I need to do to keep Ryan completely happy. Does this mean I will also accept less than what I really desire and go have a lesbian experience just to be with a woman? Absolutely not. I am not a lesbian. I am not even a part-time lesbian. And I am definitely not an intern lesbian working for free to gain experience.
Do I consider my bond with Ryan the reason I am really into bisexual experiences only? Absolutely. For me, no matter how attractive a woman is, the experience would feel empty if my partner in life wasn’t with me. Do I want to taste women, enjoy women, and be with a woman in every way possible? For sure, but not enough so that I am willing to cheapen my own experience because I have to come home and talk about how cool it was and how I wish Ryan could have been there. He is my lover and best friend. I need him around to truly enjoy my experiences. I’m not looking for notches on my belt, the same as I am not answering random ads to hook up with random men on the fly. Women are complicated and I am definitely a woman. Even though I love sex, I do not sell myself for cheapened experiences just to do it.